December was really bad for me. It's hard to describe my depression but it's like you're trapped in somebody else's body. You see the world out of their eyes but can't control what happens. When you move, you don't feel as if you're actually the one doing it, you feel numb, oblivious to the world around you which is dull and gray. I don't want to eat, i don't want to drink. All i want to do is sleep. But i want to stop my depression. And i can only do that through talking to people in real life. Over text, e-mail and blog it doesn't really help. But it's still nice to know that people care.
As some of you know i changed my name to 'Basically Dead Already' and i wrote it on postit notes and placed them all around my bed so that it was the last thing i saw when i went to sleep and the first thing when i woke up. A while ago my mum saw them. But i had already came up with a solution. I said it was the name of a collection of drawings that i was going to start. And i didn't exactly lie. So here it is, the first drawing of my collection that i'm hoping to keep going.
Non-color version
Snow White. Half-dead half-alive.
Cool drawing
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