Basically Dead Already

December was really bad for me. It's hard to describe my depression but it's like you're trapped in somebody else's body. You see the world out of their eyes but can't control what happens. When you move, you don't feel as if you're actually the one doing it, you feel numb, oblivious to the world around you which is dull and gray. I don't want to eat, i don't want to drink. All i want to do is sleep. But i want to stop my depression. And i can only do that through talking to people in real life. Over text, e-mail and blog it doesn't really help. But it's still nice to know that people care.
As some of you know i changed my name to 'Basically Dead Already' and i wrote it on postit notes and placed them all around my bed so that it was the last thing i saw when i went to sleep and the first thing when i woke up. A while ago my mum saw them. But i had already came up with a solution. I said it was the name of a collection of drawings that i was going to start. And i didn't exactly lie. So here it is, the first drawing of my collection that i'm hoping to keep going.

Non-color version

 Snow White. Half-dead half-alive.

Last one of the day.

Well this is the last and most recent drawing that i've done. It's of Skulduggery and Valkyrie, and i'm really proud of it. Skulduggery's shoulders are too broad though which is annoyig. And i love Valkyrie's face.

Now the Bleach ones again but without color. Because i think i ruin them with pen but idk.

Toshiro without color

 Toshiro with color (Mmm my baby. Look at those eyes...)

 Yachiru without color

 Yachiru with color

 Matsuoto without color

 Matsumoto with color

 Kenpachi without colour

 Kenpachi with color

 Renji without color

 Renji with color

 Mayuri with color. (He's such a creep)

 Nemu with colour (I love her. She's badass.)

 Byakuga is boring and has no color. (but still badass)

 Ukitake is hilarious. I don't care if you have no color i love you.

I'm better at Drawing anime stuff...

I always feel as if i ruin my drawings by adding color.

Toshiro Hitsugaya: 10th Squad Captain.

Rangiku Matsumoto: 10th Squad Vice-Captain

 Zakarai Kenpachi: 11th Squad Captain

 Kusajishi Yachiru: 11th Squad Vice-Captain

 Kuchiki Byakuga: 6th Squad Captain.

 Renji Abari: 6th Squad Vice-Captain

 Ukitake Jushiro: 13th Squad Captain

Mayuri Kurutsuchi: 12th Squad Captain

 Nemu Kurutsuchi: 12th Squad Vice-Captain

 Ichimaru Gin: 3rd Squad Captain

 Soi Fon: 2nd Squad Captain

 'Bleach' logo (messed it up)

'Fairy Tail' logo (really proud of this)

 Fairy Tail's strongest team. Erza Scarlet, Lucy heartfillia, Happy, Natsu Dragneel, Gray Fullbuster

 Inoe Orihime and Ichigo Kurosaki

 Happy and Carla

 Wendy and Carla

 Gray and Juvia <3

 Natsu and Lucy <3

 'Brothers Conflict' logo

 Suburu and Tsubaki Asahina. (Messed up Tsubaki's face which kills me inside.)

 Wateru Asahina

 Kanato from 'diabolik lovers'

 Hikaru Asahina (my favorite drawing)

 Suburu from 'Mayo Chiki'

 Look at her eyes though! I did them perfectly!

As i grew up, i realised i was terrible at drawing.

As i grew up, i realised i was terrible at drawing and therefore bought lots of books teaching me how to draw better. Including a book that was about fashion and taught me different poses, how to draw parts of the body, dressed, colors and how to draw certain fabrics. So i started practising and doodling more.

Depressed Valkyrie. That's terrible.

 My attempt at Drawing Draco Hellsworth in the first chapter of my fanfiction.

 I don't even know. But i love her weapons.

 Uh...

 Drew a United States Championship belt for my brother.

 Another dress i drew and designed myself.

 A tiara.

 Butterflies!

 Colorful castles

 A fantasy dress.

 I messed it up....but it's still pretty.

 Street view of my old house. I had a better one but i lost it...

 It took me like an hour to color this in with gell pens.

 I did a better one. I don't like this as much.

 I messed up. Couldn't fit all of the letters in.

 Misa-misa from Death Note. Yes she has no mouth. She talks too much.

 A guy from an anime my friend asked me to draw.

 I was in a very depressing mood and this pastel painting shows it.

 I made a comic-strip thing for a game i used to play called 'The Darkness'

 I love owls.